It's really sad. when the girl u thot could be the one for you to try to love again. when you did love again. she just left you with another guy. why must love start with a smile, grow with a kiss and ends with a teardrop. why cant love be faithful and everlasting? its hurtful to be in love and be loved. I never knew i could get hurt till like this. and life still goes on and on everyday.
yesterday saw her yet i dun have courage to even say a HI to her. cos i scare after we start talking i will start missing and thinking our past. the only way to overcome her and forget the past is dun talk to her and dun recall the pasts. i know like tht im hurting myself and her too. But no one understand the pain deep in me. even thot now we are like strangers like tht. but i still care alot for her. and i hope she stay happy with the one she chosen.
after tht me, bentan, howard, benpoh, jinqiang, andrew and fadzil when to the sea side there to drink our vodka. first we played a game i learned in pub, and a game jinqiang always play with us. and of course. the punishment is drink and drink and drink.
yesterday was super shag.. dunno due to wad reason. i got drunk very fast.. whole body turns hot.. after bentan and fadzil took out their shirt.. i took off mine too. cos im really feeling hot.. after tht we didnt had enuff of drinking.. so went to the chalet cheers there to get more alcohol.. and drink at the bbq pit at the chalet there. and after tht im really drunk.. when i go back the chalet.. i str8 jump onto the bed and slp.. den later bentan vomit on the floor.. den me and howard walk him into the toilet... and wash up all this..den i continue slp till dunno wad time.. i tink 2 or 3am.. i saw fadzil sitting infront of me.. so i ask him whether he ok or not? den i ask him bring me to toilet... and i start vomitting.. i dunno wad i vomit out aso... my eye super blur.. cannot see clearly.. den later go back slp... and keep asking qiang they all to call beehwee for me.. but no one wants call for me.. at tht part of time.. really tinks alot abt her... haiizz.. den wake up again... and go vomit again.... den slp again.. till morning 9 plus.. its time for us to check out tht time... i go vomit again... super shag.. jus gt the feeling of not drinking anymore... nw all the bad feelings are gone.. but my head is feeling terrible.. k.. time to go bed... bye everybody.
P.S: i love her deeply. thts why im like tht ever since the day we apart.
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✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 11:33 AM x
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JIM . Fujimoto
Singaporean. 19 years old male. =) 29th june 1990. Chinese. slacker. dreamer. they always say its good to have a dream but not daydream. Sensitive. faithful and royal. THATS ME !! four brothers for life and love meihui forever.
