✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖




Monday, March 31, 20082:40 AM
✖ [[ ANGER !! ]] ✖

after a brother of mine trying to change my thinking.. all my anger jus came out suddenly.. pls dun continue to read this post if u r those ppl who dun like vulgar words.


WHY THE FUCK GIRLS LIKE TO HURT MY FEELINGS? AM I JUST SO NICE TO PLAY WITH? AM I SOMEONE WHO JUS HAVE TO GIVE OUT MY LOVE AND I DUN NID LOVE?
WHY I CAN LOVE SOMEONE WHOLEHEARTEDLY AND NO ONE CAN LOVE ME WHOLEHEARTEDLY? THIS 2 RELATIONSHIP I HAD IS ENUFF FOR ME LE. I WONT GO FOR A 3RD ONE !!. I DUN WAN TO BE HURTED AGAIN !! U ALL KNOW HOW FUCKING PAIN IT IS OR NOT !!! BREAKING BOYS HEART MAKE U GIRL VERY SONG SI BO?!?!

ALL THIS WHILE DID I DID ANYTHING WRONG TO THE GIRL I LOVED? WHY MUST THEM TREAT ME LIKE THT? WHEN THEY NEEDS ME THEY WANT ME... THEY DUN NID ME DEN JUS KICK ME ASIDE ?!?!

i jus want to be loved. is it so hard to want tht?
i feel like dying now.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 2:40 AM x





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So long never blog le.. cos this few days jus seem so busy and so many things happened... didnt had a good slp this few days.. and didnt have a gd meal aso..

First of let's blog abt my chibye partner.. im her lanjiao partner. =x

this is her artistic work.



above pic is the teeth mark.


above pic is the nail marks.


these are nail marks too. NO AIDS !!

now the wounds on me and fadzil hands are still hurting us. BUT fadzil suffer more than me. THANKS BRO.

Den later this few days gt so many tai ji happened.. all i will help in one.. i will chup in... cos everyone are my brothers.. and sisters.. u all know who u all are.. im a tiong xim kia.. hahaha

den i thot i will die this few days... but end up i havent die.. im jus lucky.. im still counting down to my death.

and lots of interesting thing happened.. but every night when i wan blog.. im jus too tired to blog.. really didnt have enuff slp.

EVERYONE'S POLY SCHOOL LIFE STARTING SOON !! GOOD LUCK TO YOU ALL. haha

so wad sia.. i rmb i gt alot things want to say... but i forgotten everything... haha..

okok i jus wan say wad i know i wan to say now...

brothers are not there to harm brothers.. brothers will be there whether it will be suffer or it will be enjoy. maybe the way i define it might be wrong too. but than thts jus wad i want to say.

today im fucking emo.. cos of listening to the current song in my blog... i think of her... want sms her... but i tink she wont reply me.. the past or me and her... always talk on phone.. now we seldom even talk... last time can always go out and i can buy lots of thing for her... but now we seldom even see each other... or can never see each other again. haiizzz... k.. blog till here bah..

more and more tai ji are happening...


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 12:56 AM x





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Wednesday, March 26, 20085:19 AM
✖ [[ its back ]] ✖

i started to miss u badly again.
i wish everything can gone back to the past.
i miss our past.. those happy days..

today i made the effort to talk to u.. but end up i gt no guts to say wad i want to say.
i feel so helpless.. so speechless.

i wish tht u can show me your love. As i want to be loved too.

im sad..
i feel like crying.

why love became such a painful thing?

If only im given a second chance.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 5:19 AM x





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Tuesday, March 25, 20087:47 PM
✖ [[ Haizz ]] ✖

Boy wants their love one to be happy every moment.
But Girl only wants to be loved.
Had any girl spare a thot for someone they loved?

Wads the real meaning of love?


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 7:47 PM x





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Sunday, March 23, 20084:21 AM
✖ [[ I SWEAR THT I LOVE U ]] ✖

On the outside, to the world,
to those who know me.
I look so normal.
Seem to be alright.




On the inside. I am just EMPTY.


Talk to her for 2 hours and 15 minutes.
I know i still love her.
But i dont dare to show it out.
I know i miss her badly.
But i dont dare to say it out.
I know i care alot for her.
But i try not to say it out.
Cos i am not her who anymore.

I know she care for me. But i am no longer like last time
I felt so useless and felt that im a disappointment now.

I just feel s dead now. I hope i can love myself more and show her my love.

But i dont know wad's love anymore.


If only i was loved. Den i wont go the wrong path.
lost in darkness. The fear of darkness.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 4:21 AM x





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Saturday, March 22, 200811:23 PM
✖ [[ The world of darkness ]] ✖

I made my first step into the darkness. There's no returning.

Today jim is totally changed. But he will try his best to be cheerful.

Is this the road i want? to be standing in the dark.

18s.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 11:23 PM x





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just came back from the toilet.

jus now i sat on the toilet bowl and took out a magazine on top. den i heard one PIAK sound. so i was looking around wonder wad thing dropped. den later nth was found.

when i look carefully at my leg.. its a lizard !!! so i shake my leg and it drop off and dunno run to where le. interesting thing happened in my house toilet... hahaa


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 2:23 AM x





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The weather family is disbanded. But i will still treat those guys as my brothers and sisters. Once a xiaostorm. Forever a xiaostorm.

Dave gt his tattoo le !! its so nice.. 300 dollar. expensive but worth it. gotta get mine too. but no money. haizz..

today went to top up my bus card and the person say adult card cant top up with 5 dollar. its so troublesome to be a adult. thts wad i felt. haha

if one day i fight cos i wan to protect.
if one day i die cos of the road i had chosen.

Thanks jiejie for today.

im a disappointment.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 12:35 AM x





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Thursday, March 20, 200811:17 PM
✖ [[ Grave ]] ✖

Just went to linette's blog and saw ah meng's grave. Even a monkey had such a beautiful grave and was being remembered. Will anyone rmb me if one day i jus leave the world? And how will my grave be like? i really wonders..

Anyway jus woke up. feeling so shag again. life jus seem so shag. And felt like im now like a baby like tht... keep falling asleep whenever im watching anime on the internet. wonder wad had really happen to me.

Guys are easily satisfied.
Girls needs secure and love.

Devoted guys are always hurt; Innocent girls are always being hurt too.
Flirty guys and girls are always being loved.

Confidence are always there when u never fail or u was never been hurt.
Confidence are gone when had been hurt over and over. Like u r jus a substitution or a toy to made tht girl happy. And after she happy u r no longer needed.

Fools trust tht love is very beautiful cos there never see the ugly side of love.
Smart guys believe tht love is jus like one night stand.
Fools believe in eternity love.

Girls always ask for long lasting relationship.
But when they met one. They are the one who broke it.

Somethings we jus dunno wad girls want.

anyway now im nt saying guy is good or girl is bad.

Just want say out how i felt. When can i stop emo-ing.
im such a emo shit.

Good guy wont live.
Bad Guy live the longest.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 11:17 PM x





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Wednesday, March 19, 20089:41 PM
✖ [[ I wonder ]] ✖

Today had a heavy dinner at PARISS. The international seafood buffet at Marina Square. Ate alot till im bloated. Den today MS have a fashion show and saw alot ang moh chio bu. indeed u nid to be chio to be a model.

felt super shag this few days.. cough and flu not getting any better. And a few days i woke up with fever. Haiyo want die i hope i will die faster den to torture me like tht.

I wonder how its feel to be whack? will i be able to endure the pain? will i have the energy to fight back? i really wonders.

Anyone know any good designer in helping u to design a tattoo? The tattoo going to follow u till the day u die. Its important to find a good designer.

Having my second meeting with all those important ppl. Hope this time i wont miss the appointment and screw myself up again.

Second thing i wonder. Why so many office girl wear till so sexy? to seduce their boss? or waiting to be raped by cleaners while they are in toilet? l0lx


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 9:41 PM x





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Monday, March 17, 20085:28 AM
✖ [[ deep inside me ]] ✖

I hope i can see u one last time before going NS. But i know its impossible.
I hope i can eat one last dinner with u. But i know its impossible too.
I hope i can send u home one last time. But i know its impossible aso.

I scare my tears will come out if one day i see u and him.
I scare i will miss u if one day i see u on the streets.
I scare i will think of u when i walk pass the places we went b4.



✖ I miss those days we had. I miss u.

If tonite im going to die. I hope i can see her one last time before i die.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 5:28 AM x





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Sunday, March 16, 20088:48 PM
✖ [[ DUN RUN !! ]] ✖

had a good slp today.. so nice..

Yesterday went out to eat with my xiao weather family members. They are like my brothers and sisters like tht.. So we enjoyed the day out there yesterday.

Two shag things happened yesterday.

One is tht im actually asked to meet alot of important ppl. And i actually said tht i will be going down on saturday and i didnt know yesterday was saturday i thot its friday. So well.. i screwed up the appointment and made the one who actually bringing me there angry. So sorry. felt so paiseh lor. i dunno where i stand now..

Second thing is something i tink i felt proud of myself bah. Cos of one friend i went back to save him as i cant make myself see him being caught and i run away so end up we two are being caught. And im the only one gt searched body. they thot i gt drug or wadever it is. so they screened me carefully.. felt so shag when they search me.. but im guilty of nth.

So nex time lets not run and sit down to let police come. =)

the future is gotta be hard without money. And the future is in my hand.

There's a road i chosen and i know it will be dark in there.
Walking tht road with a reason tht i know i wouldnt want to be regret.
This road may be a road tht will be hard and even get me into trouble.
But its a road i want to be in. With tht reason.

Let's not regret.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 8:48 PM x





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Wednesday, March 12, 20084:38 PM
✖ [[ raining ]] ✖

wad a nice weather to blog.

i think gt rain whole day le bah since yesterday night. it will be good if i dun have flu... i will be enjoying this weather... but too bad im suffering in this weather..

didnt had a good slp yesterday night... den today my parent woke up and nag me. say nex time wan cough. cough softly cos they nid to slp. so poor thing.. im restricted to coughing aso. but i aso dun wan cough de... but coughing like hell. till this morning gt cough out blood smell.. i tink the throat there bleed le bah. and aso gt sore throat. is jim dying soon?

If i die. all my friends, brothers pls tell my parent to throw my ash into the sea.. cos i wan to roam freely in this world. i dun wan to be kept in a sad place.

I let go nt becoz i dun love u. Cos i dun wan see u suffer.
I put myself in your shoe. Knowing u dun wan hurt two guys
in the 3 of us. one of us nid to be hurted badly. i will be the one.
I let go cos i wan u to be happy. Cos i know u had been stressed to choose between the two of us.
I know he is better than me. And im sure he can give u happiness. But i still hate him like i always do. Those memories of us will not be faded. Cos those are the days when im really happy.

Now u had someone new le. i hope he will really treat u well.
In the future i bet we wont be able to see each other le. But your face will always be in my heart.
those smile i saw when we r tgt. I will be alone here thinking of those memories we had. Cos i cant put it down.

Dun play too much cabal. i know its a new game to u. But dun get addicted and spend more time on your studies.

The rain today is like the rain in my heart.. raining so heavily and make my heart felt so heavy. Hope u r happy of wad u had chosen. Cos i am nt happy with all those thing i had did. But i have no choice. Cos i wan u to be happy. I may not have u to be with me for life. But as long as i can see u happy i am satisfied.


If tonite a wish was to come true. I wish to die peacefully on my bed tonite.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 4:38 PM x





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WAD HAPPEN TO ME?!?!

jus felt so shag today.. even after blogging. went to dota even thot i keep win win win.. but the killing jus dun looks so excited to me.. dun have the energy to kill. Den keep coughing like hell.. and having flu...

lucky no nose block... tht's the happy thing. But overall im still very emo today. After wad had happen today. I guess Its more painful to be sad than to be hurted bah.

Sometimes i wonder.. why is it so hard to love someone.. and why is it so hard to want someone to love u when u love her wholeheartedly? and i wonder why ppl bear to say the one they loved to be hurted. Maybe im too kind hearted bah thts why i dun bear to see the ones i loved to be hurted by me or others.

"Sorry" and "i love you" this two word or sentence are too much being abused. Dun u guys tink so?

Is it time for me to die? still i dun find any excitement in life today. i bet so bah.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 4:16 AM x





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today went back MS to attend my friend's wedding... so long no go MS le... kinda miss all the ppl there.. went there den saw she and tht guy.. at first try to ignore.. but later keep see and see.. kinda felt sad and start emo-ing cos of the ring they wearing.

today was fucking emo.. everyone taking photos.. im there emo-ing at the corner..

den later went to talk to one of my hougang xiong di jeff abt my xin shi.. thanks for all the comments u gave.. and listen to all the emo things i said... i know its kinda boring... LOL.

kk... now i wan emo again le.. today dun really feel alive...



P.S: thanks shiqi for taking care us at your house yesterday. But after u slp le i became very dead and slp on your sofa. LOL. and i off your TV and dvd for u... =P


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 2:23 AM x





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Monday, March 10, 20084:17 AM
✖ [[ Tears, good or bad? ]] ✖



Once i loved a girl wholehearted
she gave me happiness.
she only gave me one kiss
happy, i cried cos of your hand.
sad, i cried cos of my hand.
i cant find the future that we had planned.
good tears or bad tears it had flew for u.
being touched and being sad is part of the reason.

But when u said u dun love me anymore.
the bad tears keep flowing continuously
happy i cried. cos i had did my part.
sad i cried cos i had lost out.
your heart can never stay at my here.
whether its good tears or bad tears i will still have it for u.
i only hope when i stop thinking of u
the tears tht come out is good tears.
and hope the smile will accompany me forever.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 4:17 AM x





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Wednesday, March 5, 20089:05 AM
✖ [[ 你还爱我吗 ]] ✖

The sound of the rain came during the night. Slowly moves the melody in my heart.
cant control myself. But always thinks of you and those sweet memories.
without awareness always ended up having a pair of wet eyes.
loves needs to have some space. Occasionally still need to keep a distance.
now we had gone back to friendship. and you are now set free.

And from tht day onwards. whenever i thinks of you. tht feeling can only be kept in my heart.
DO YOU STILL LOVE ME? i always wanted to ask.
but im afraid to know the truth.
DO YOU STILL LOVE ME? why u always dun wan to talk to me?
looking at me struggling in the pain of love.
DO YOU STILL LOVE ME? its been very long since we last chatted.
but my heart still cares you.
i feel very familiar in this cold cold night.
wish to see you again and listen to your voice again.
love path always makes ppl feel very helpless, i will learn to live alone.
and give you my blessing as u r the one i deeply loved.

DO YOU STILL LOVE ME? i always wanted to ask.
but im afraid to know the truth
DO YOU STILL LOVE ME? you my only worries.
no matters what type of answers you going to give.
i will always wait for you. DO YOU STILL LOVE ME?


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 9:05 AM x





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Tuesday, March 4, 200812:48 AM
✖ [[ empty ]] ✖

felt so empty suddenly. i dunno hw to describe this feeling. all i will say is tht its suck totally. its the point when u feel tht u wasnt needed or even existed in this world. like got u no you aso no diff. its like u might as well go die now den at least this world less one person snatching oxygen with others.
IM TRANSPARENT.

if i gone missing for days... will anyone know? will anyone go look for me? i feel tht no one will know. and ppl wont even find me. cos i like doesnt even existed in their heart at all. jus feel so empty now and useless of course.

dead.


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 12:48 AM x





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Monday, March 3, 20081:34 AM
✖ [[ Love No More ]] ✖

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more


x ✖ Mr.Bimbotic ✖ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE,WILL YOU? 1:34 AM x





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cool kids.


JIM . Fujimoto
Singaporean. 19 years old male. =) 29th june 1990. Chinese. slacker. dreamer. they always say its good to have a dream but not daydream. Sensitive. faithful and royal. THATS ME !! four brothers for life and love meihui forever.


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MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Listen b4 this beome your funeral songs =)


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✖ - Jim's Last say ~

No one gotta hurt my brothers
as i will be there with them
till the very end..

My 4 sworn brothers
Da ge - Benjamin Tan
Er ge - Jim Goh
San ge - Howard Lam
Si Mei - See YiTing

Jim is a guy who is
sensitive and shy
he was hurt in love
therefore, he is not
very confidence in
confessing to the one
he love

My last say, That changes this world




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The past that changed history
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